Morning all. Day 2. I relapsed just a little (2 big glasses of wine) Thursday night. Stressful BS going on in my life. Weak moment and impulsive act when I found alcohol in the house. honestly, was more "F-it" than coherent thought. I'll drink away the emotion. Went to my daily meeting, started over and reset my clock. I'm good, but f*6%4, it can't be so hard like this forever. Ending my marriage over it (she won't stop and brings it home) and retiring from the AF. There have been PMs asking me how I'm doing, and I love that. I'm good, just disappointed a little in myself. Relapse is part of recovery and I called my sponsor immediately and poured all of everything out. I have a great support group, I just should have called a little bit earlier.
I want to reiterate...to any Brother or Sister here who wants to talk or needs help or anything, reach to me at ANY hour day or night. Most relapses are when you're alone in the dark in the middle of the night in your own head.
Thanks all, and I'm proud to be a family member.
-trey