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The end of one chapter, but the start of another

Hey Cory,

There's not much I CAN say, but that it seems you've got a good handle on what's going on. I admire your wisdom and clarity in this situation.
Just remember, it's all uphill from here.

Rob
 
Divorce is very stressful and most people don't take care of themselves as well in the early stages. Watch your health, eat right and exercise that will help immensely.Been there, done that...good luck in the future.

As have I...and Ray speaks the truth. You sound as if you are pretty squared away on your viewpoint/outlook of things from this point forward, but do not get mired in what has already transpired. Never forget it mind you, but don't dwell on it. Take it and continue to learn from it. Yes, each new day is a new chapter and you keep moving forward...much like Wilkey's beautiful analogy. With my first wife, I too went through experiences much like those you describe - but I am definitely stronger and better for having weathered them. So too shall you be, if not already.

Stay strong brother - in spirt, faith, mind and body.
 
Unfortunately, instead of being straightforward with his ex-wife and asking if he could come over, Cory decided to trespass in the gated, locked, fenced backyard and peek in the windows. Then he went into harassment mode. What he saw was correct- a man was in the kitchen doing dishes, helping to clean up after a garage sale that had happened during the day. He is a friend of a roommate, and would be there for the night. The room was given to him, since the ex-wife usually sleeps on the couch anyway, and the roommate had a guest staying in his bed with him. So Cory was right again, there was a man in her room.

But then Cory got scary, banging on the door, yelling, hyperventilating, and wouldn't leave the house. She has worked in an ER- she knows better than to go face to face with an angry, potentially drunk man who has a past history of drug and alcohol abuse, who thinks he's been cheated on. This is how battered women are formed- because of real fears or other fears. She was worried about what he would do to the guy. She knows of Cory's past of wanting to get retribution; maybe this night he would follow through.

He knew that she has a fear of people lurking around when they're not expected, a fear of them jumping out at her, a fear of someone trying to get into her house, but yet in his state, he couldn't understand why she wouldn't let him in. She asked him to just leave. He didn't think about the fact that she had taken her daughter to the Haunted World, and got scared there. He didn't know that during the time he was lurking outside, she got an unsettled feeling, like something wasn't right, called her daughter to make sure she was safe, called her roommate to make sure he was still planning on coming home with his girlfriend, thought maybe she needed to kick out the guy since she was home alone with a stranger and maybe that was what the feeling was warning her about. About 10 minutes later she finds out that it's Cory-Cory of all people- that's sneaking around the house, raising her awareness of danger. So when he comes freaking out from the middle of nowhere, banging on the door, she is already on high alert and hypervigilant, she understands why he is upset because of what he saw, tries to remain calm, and just tries to get him to go away. He assumed it was because she was sleeping with the guy in her bed.

There will be no conversation about "this". There is no "this". There is a man who again justifies and rationalizes the end with the means, and can't see any other thing but his own agenda- not even the pain and the fear and the need of the woman he loves. We will part ways, again. I wish you the best of luck in your life, and on your journey, Cory. I will always love you, and want only good and happiness to bless your life. You are the love of my life, and have been since we were 5. It does not always work out to marry your best friend. I pray that alcohol does not get the better of you, the best of you. It was a mistake for you to start drinking again after all those years clean. Its just not worth the risk, and the consequences of loss in your life. Maybe by losing me you will not lose everything else. I am sorry that this is the story that we end with, again. Love, your ex-wife.
 
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