Recent thoughts and apologies

[BigJake6904]

Man, this kid's threads tend to get real f'ng weird. I wouldn't be surprised if that chick with the boa constrictor started posting again in here.

You wouldn't be claiming that people with pet snakes are weird would ya? :blush:

In all seriousness, my 5ft python, Allie, is the sweetest thing in the world...she'd never hurt a soul. I hope this girl was weird for other reasons, and it's not just because she had a pet snake. ???

 

[Smokyballs]

Looking back at previous posts and various things I said, I deserved what was said to me. It's been a few months now, been lurking and learning like what was said to me. I was told to grow up, which I think I'm doing fairly well at, been working since moving in here and making money to help pay for insurance, life and car, and various bills to help out the family.

Now to the people I owe apologies to.

Brent: I know you said not to talk to you again. Regardless I'm still gonna apologize again because I was a real jerk for what I said, nothing that I said was good at all, I was an idiot and deserved to be sent to a island far from here for it. You're a good BOTL and I enjoyed the talks we had in the past. I hope you and your family the best in the future.

Brad: I was acted in bad ways at the Outlaw, thinking I was cock of the walk when in fact I had no idea what I was doing. I acted in ways that were embarrassing to me and to everyone else. I promise in the future to never act like that again and to respect you as not just the manager of the best cigar store in the world, but also as a great smoker.

All of the KC guys: I've not really been a good BOTL, in fact probably the worst. I wish to make it up to you guys by being a better friend and person and only to say the best things that I truly feel. You guys are all awesome and I'm sorry I was a dick.

Grapes and Souldog: I may have said some things in jest, but that still means I said them. I'm sorry for saying those awful words. I never meant for it to hurt anyone. I thought I was just one of the boys when I wasnt there. I acted like a fool and for that, I'm deeply sorry.

And to everyone here, I'm sorry I thought I was the greatest for being young and thought I knew a lot about cigars. I've learned I was just a no nothing who thought he could get away with anything. I'm sorry for that guys.

Ok, what led to this epiphany? I sorry but I don't get it. What are you apologizing to me for? You don't even know why I can't stand you. You are a mooch and about as bright as 12 watt bulb! I'm a great smoker, what the hell does that mean? You need understand why Brent doesn't want you to talk to him! It's the same reason I don't talk to you when you come in the store. A very smart man once said "make sure you brain is loaded before you shoot off your mouth". Some of the stupidest things I have ever heard have come out of your mouth. You don't just annoy me, you annoy any one who is in the room with you. I have customers that leave the lounge when you walk in or shortly there after. You can't make the assumption that by making a post you can solve all of your problems with the people you have crossed here. You problem is that you felt the need to do this publicly! You are after the attention of this board. A series of PMs would have gotten you a lot farther with me. Had I not decided to read your post I would have had no idea that you had attempted to apologize to me ( someone here would have let me know via a PM)! Apologies not excepted because you still don't have a clue why you are apologizing. Don't feel the need to respond to this post because is will send my real thoughts about you in a PM.










Oh, you didn't get my PM? Yeah, I didn't send one! I try not you think about you!

 

[tomthirtysix]

A good start but let's see how it goes from here.

It went the direction that many of us thought it would:

9:41 OzPod You know what
9:41 OzPod Fuck it
9:41 OzPod I'm done caring
9:41 OzPod I'm going up there and hanging with the people I already know, I enjoyed myself there before CP
9:42 OzPod Just dont need CP anymore

This is only being posted here because I think it's important that the board knows he no longer needs us.

 

[Sweetrice80]

A good start but let's see how it goes from here.

It went the direction that many of us thought it would:

9:41 OzPod You know what
9:41 OzPod Fuck it
9:41 OzPod I'm done caring
9:41 OzPod I'm going up there and hanging with the people I already know, I enjoyed myself there before CP
9:42 OzPod Just dont need CP anymore

This is only being posted here because I think it's important that the board knows he no longer needs us.

So I guess I missed out on an eventful night, while writing a paper. Damn. Thanks for sharing Tom, for some reason, I thought it would turn for the best. But guess I was wrong within one day.

David

 

[tomthirtysix]

Dave, that wasn't last night. That was copy/pasted from ~20 minutes ago.

 

[tsmckenney]

Man, this kid's threads tend to get real f'ng weird. I wouldn't be surprised if that chick with the boa constrictor started posting again in here.

You wouldn't be claiming that people with pet snakes are weird would ya? :blush:

In all seriousness, my 5ft python, Allie, is the sweetest thing in the world...she'd never hurt a soul. I hope this girl was weird for other reasons, and it's not just because she had a pet snake. ???

Naw, it had nothing to do with the snake. She just happened to be sharing some pictures and they included her scantily dressed holding the snake.

You could search and find it somewhere. She lasted about all of a day. I think MC ran her off. :laugh: There was another lady that used to be on here as well that got chased off. I want to say her name was Dawn. Anyway, if you find the snake lady threads you'll also find some references to this other lady. There are some funny as hell posts on her. Worth the time...

 

[tsmckenney]

A good start but let's see how it goes from here.

It went the direction that many of us thought it would:

9:41 OzPod You know what
9:41 OzPod Fuck it
9:41 OzPod I'm done caring
9:41 OzPod I'm going up there and hanging with the people I already know, I enjoyed myself there before CP
9:42 OzPod Just dont need CP anymore

This is only being posted here because I think it's important that the board knows he no longer needs us.

The bummer of this thread is, even if the kid wanted to fight back and have some fun, I don't think it would make for anything amusing. At all.

 

[OzPod]

No, I tried apologizing, but I realized that the community doesnt want me. I also realized I was happy with cigars before the site. I just needed to realize that.

I only got angry because what Brad said really got to me. I rarely have went to the Outlaw since everything went down. I didnt even go to the Torano event because of it. I couldnt enjoy myself because of what people thought of me.

I'm not dim, just socially awkward in person as I've said before. I'm sorry if I ever came off as obnoxious, I never wanted to be like that.

I just wanted to say sorry to people, that's all I ever wanted. I never wanted any cigars given to me(and guess what, I never got any for the supposed begging, I never expected any to begin with). I just wanted a place to go to discuss cigars. I may have been a bit premature with the posting of the moving thing, as I wasnt well known and I shouldnt have done it since I was and still am a newb.

Some members do not, and will never, like me. I know that. I'm just trying to get along with everyone. Regardless of anything I do, I will always been seen now by some people as an idiot, but I dont care. I'm here to talk cigars and have fun. Other sites are getting sold like cattle but this is the only place that stood up and said no. The site is strong, and I want to be a member of it.

 

[MX]

"The only difference between a rut and a grave, is the depth of the hole"

My pops told me that once.

In the end it is up to you, dig in or climb out. Some here might not ever like you, well, that is what it is......everything else is up to you.

Tim

 

[Seanholio]

No, I tried apologizing, but I realized that the community doesnt want me. I also realized I was happy with cigars before the site. I just needed to realize that.

I only got angry because what Brad said really got to me. I rarely have went to the Outlaw since everything went down. I didnt even go to the Torano event because of it. I couldnt enjoy myself because of what people thought of me.

I'm not dim, just socially awkward in person as I've said before. I'm sorry if I ever came off as obnoxious, I never wanted to be like that.

I just wanted to say sorry to people, that's all I ever wanted. I never wanted any cigars given to me(and guess what, I never got any for the supposed begging, I never expected any to begin with). I just wanted a place to go to discuss cigars. I may have been a bit premature with the posting of the moving thing, as I wasnt well known and I shouldnt have done it since I was and still am a newb.

Some members do not, and will never, like me. I know that. I'm just trying to get along with everyone. Regardless of anything I do, I will always been seen now by some people as an idiot, but I dont care. I'm here to talk cigars and have fun. Other sites are getting sold like cattle but this is the only place that stood up and said no. The site is strong, and I want to be a member of it.

Originally, I wasn't going to post in this thread because I'm withholding judgment to see if Calvin actually changes his ways in the wake of this apology or if he is going to continue in his role as a negative example for just about everyone in the world. It seems that he is already choosing the latter.

Calvin, you chose to post a public apology to specific individuals instead of PMing them. You have apologized, but you have no idea what precipitated the need for an apology. Shortly after Brad's statement above, you lost your cool in an IRC channel where CP Members are known to hang out. The evidence of this is posted above.

These do not add up to genuine contrition. You may be socially awkward. You may be obnoxious. You may feel badly for having offended others. You are not doing yourself any favors by getting upset when someone objects to your apology falling short.

I offer this one piece of advice with sincerity and compassion: Find a therapist and start seeing them semiweekly to figure out why this is happening. I guarantee that it's not without cause, and the cause is something inside you.

 

[MilesMingusMonk]

Man, this kid's threads tend to get real f'ng weird. I wouldn't be surprised if that chick with the boa constrictor started posting again in here.

You wouldn't be claiming that people with pet snakes are weird would ya? :blush:

In all seriousness, my 5ft python, Allie, is the sweetest thing in the world...she'd never hurt a soul. I hope this girl was weird for other reasons, and it's not just because she had a pet snake. ???

Naw, it had nothing to do with the snake. She just happened to be sharing some pictures and they included her scantily dressed holding the snake.

You could search and find it somewhere. She lasted about all of a day. I think MC ran her off. :laugh: There was another lady that used to be on here as well that got chased off. I want to say her name was Dawn. Anyway, if you find the snake lady threads you'll also find some references to this other lady. There are some funny as hell posts on her. Worth the time...

Here's the Snakebabe thread for reference : Link

Dawn is an early member ( #31 of #9128 ) of the forum ( joined January 2001). Dawn shows up to say hello every blue moon, posts some pictures, retell her gut punching story for the millionth time and bathe in the glow of attention briefly. Dawn has never been "chased off" CigarPass.

 

[tone-ny]

Here's the Snakebabe thread for reference : Link

Dawn is an early member ( #31 of #9128 ) of the forum ( joined January 2001). Dawn shows up to say hello every blue moon, posts some pictures, retell her gut punching story for the millionth time and bathe in the glow of attention briefly. Dawn has never been "chased off" CigarPass.

Dawn is an original and the master of the hit and run. She'll show up soon as we are due for visit!

 

[tsmckenney]

Here's the Snakebabe thread for reference : Link

Dawn is an early member ( #31 of #9128 ) of the forum ( joined January 2001). Dawn shows up to say hello every blue moon, posts some pictures, retell her gut punching story for the millionth time and bathe in the glow of attention briefly. Dawn has never been "chased off" CigarPass.

Good clarification. The gut-punching had me laughing pretty hard.

 

[Eshaw99]

Holy crap, I'd almost forgotten about Dawn...