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Strange question, I need help.

Thanks again everyone!

I hope you guys will forgive me for blatantly using you:)

After much thought and reminiscing, I think I may understand why Pat's death has been so hard for me to grasp. I hope this will allow me to accept it, grieve, and move on ..... but never forget!

Pat and my son are the same age for one thing, and while I have a ton of friends who are much younger than I am, Pat was different. We are all a bunch of ball busters and we all take every opportunity to tease and have fun with each other, it's how you know you are accepted in our circle.

The other younger guys who I am close with, and were all part of the core group of friends, were always respectful of me and the other older guys .... but Pat was different. Pat would sit with me for hours and BS about anything and everything.

He would often text me to see if I was coming to camp for the weekend. If I was at my son's camp by myself, and would tell him I had a project to do and would be done at 3PM, he would walk in the door at 3:15, larger than life, with a cooler full of beer, sit down at the table, pull out two beers and say "how are you buddy?". He would often call me and ask advice about the well at camp, or building the deck. He was different!

I will miss him!
This, my friend, is why we live. Without the good shit, life just ain't worth it. It's a heavy load right now, but it'll lighten a bit as time goes on. Just never forget the value he added to your life. Share those thoughts with his family, so they know he had true meaning in someone's life. That will bring them joy as well.

Floyd T
 
Well, the first part went better than I could have hoped! After standing in line for nearly 2 hours and being utterly amazed at how Kristy, his girlfriend, held herself together, that all ended for both of us when she and I hugged.

I was able to regain my composure enough to pay my respects to his family.

Tomorrow might be the tough one!
 
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